I can still feel the distance of the past. Prior days blurring away, yet, I know that while I reach to still see the smile on his face or his touch against my skin, those memories will be soon recreated in the days to come. I haven't been one for stability in recent times. The thought of having one city, one career, and one partner weren't exactly feasible with so much up in the air. But knowing now that I will be in the same place this time next year, hopeful to be helplessly falling still, I feel a newfound sense of stability to my life.
I found it hard to give and receive love knowing that it would be distanced with a move. I stand behind the thought of living for the moment and not letting the fear of a painful end stop from seeking joy in love. Doing just that gave me the best summer I have ever had. But the excitement and thrill of knowing that the possibility of something more, something lasting, is right before your eyes and is exactly what you've been searching for, well damn, I wish I could explain it more.
I know these feelings aren't always lasting and ends often come, but being reminded of the hopeful hopeless romantic nature I've always had with love has never made me feel more like myself. I'm just really happy.