Fuel Your Compass
I find I'm the most inspired after concerts. Taking your seat or standing in a crowd of strangers all around, it only takes a moment to realize that you don't need to say a word to realize how much you have in common. The music plays, I look around and watch as a crowd of people come together in one place, regardless of their differences, to celebrate a passion someone once thought to pursue. The turmoil of their lives left at the door, everyone shared in their emotional path that the artist had wanted to share. At that very moment, I knew that I needed to find a career in life that gave me the same semblance as teaching once did.
I miss that feeling so badly.
One of my favourite artists, K.Flay, talks about how she worried her lyrics were too specific and that people wouldn't be able to relate. I think that's what makes her words so potent. They say write what you know, just as in life, live as who you are. Filling this post with cliches, life is far too short to live as someone else. Pretending in a job, in relationships, in love, we cater so much of who we are to what we think will please every other person but our own. I spent four years of my life in a relationship that made me question the person I was. I lacked all confidence in the words I spoke, the dreams I held, as if the feelings I had were forever in need of justification. I wish I could go back and shake the person I was for that time. The young kid, new in love, altering all of my actions in hopes he would always accept me. I want to scream at the person I was. But it's hard to gain that sense of perspective when you're so far deep in something with no real indication of what is right. My own compass was dropped from the moment I met him.
We all get into those sort of ruts of life where we stray from the person we know we want to be. I think that's okay. Those lazy days where we forget the big dreams we want to achieve and just be. The times we blow off the gym for months on end and never understand why we went in the first place. In the fluctuations of who we are in life, I think it is all about those moments where our compass feels tattooed to our skin, our purpose re-centered, and holding onto those moments for as long as we can.
Seek those moments out and find people who make you always feel unapologetic for being exactly who you are.